I slept in this morning. Not feeling like getting out of bed at all, is not a great way to start any productive day. I finally pealed myself out of bed around 11:00 a.m. and made my morning latte’ still feeling groggy. As I sat down at my computer to check email, blog posts, and browse funny animal and parrot videos with my son, I had forgotten about our plans to take Jaden downtown to the Inner Harbor. It’s now a little past 1:00 p.m. and I have several things that I absolutely NEED to get done today, but don’t have the energy to hardly move. Sounds like a bit of a hangover, but that’s hardly the case since I don’t drink!
I didn’t stay up too late last night, but I was out of bed frequently throughout the night as the slightest sounds seemed to wake me. Every hour, and just minutes before the hour, I took notice the clock every time I walked passed my nightstand on my way to my office. It’s becoming a habit to stand in the window smoking a cigarette watching the same rat scurry from the neighbor’s yard and run across the alley to the yard across the street. All night long every night this rat continues with this same, unexciting journey to and from the neighbor’s empty yards. I guess it’s better than having that rat in my yard!
At 4:53 this morning, I took notice of the time as I made my way back to my office for another cigarette. The sky was brightening and the birds were chirping their morning songs, and I was once again fully awake and unable to go back to sleep. This sleeplessness has been going on for about two weeks now. Although I’ve mentioned this to my doctor, who insists that there is nothing to worry about, it is really starting to take a toll on my daily activities. My son is increasingly asking me “Are you mad at me Daddy?” and of course when I tell him “No, Jaden I’m sorry, I’m just tired,” he’s noticed that something isn’t right.
Just about everyday it feels like one of those occasional “lazy Sunday mornings” that everybody has. Generally, I start feeling fine around 3:00 p.m. or a little later. I guess its time to start a new routine. I should try something different, like maybe watch a movie before bed, or start getting up an hour or two earlier than I usually do. Maybe I should try to do more physical activities during the day, which isn’t a bad idea anyway, to get my body in a better condition for sleep at night. One way or the other, this cycle has to end.
Some might say that it’s age catching up with me, and others may even go as far as to say “You’re just a lazy bum!” A couple years ago, I used to get up pretty early every day and I would take my son downtown literally every day. We would walk the Inner Harbor, take the water taxi, or just window shop for hours on end. I guess I’ve answered my own question regarding what I should do to break this cycle. I need to force myself to do more outside this house, and make a day out of it with the family. On that note, this lazy Sunday has a brighter outlook than I had felt earlier in the day.